Holly 6/4/2011

So many of you may know that Holly has been a pretty misserable baby.  Well here is whats been going on.
From day one Holly ALWAYS needed to be held or she would cry.  As she got older she would scream bloody murder!  I have assumed since the start that she was just a "high needs" baby.  She was pretty colicky- screaming for hours and hours at a time- one time she screamed for 7hours straight!  I can't even go to the bathroomm without her crying and freaking out.  High needs, I get it.
So when she is screaming I thought she was in pain and guessed it was silent reflux.  When I talked to the doctors about it they just said all babies spit up, it's normal, bla bla bla.  Well it is NOT normal for a baby to be screaming in pain all day.  At 5 months I finally got a doctor to listen to me that there is something wrong with her- not just her high needs personality.  Well I see a different doctor and she has sever GERD.  No wondering my baby has been screaming in pain all the time!  She just started medicine for it and we hope this will help with her pain and fussyness.

Moral of the story- YOU know your baby best.  I kept pushing and pushing that this is not normal.  I know I am a first time mom.  However I helped raise my 9 year old sister and also have a 3 year old sister.  Holly is nothing like them and her crying out in pain I knew was not normal baby behavior. 
Anyways it has been a rough 5 months to say the least.  She is starting to have separation and stranger anxiety.  I've been reading that it is normal for high needs babies to start this pretty early.  It's been incredibly tough and just overall exhausting.  However with the new medicine I'm hoping that Holly will no longer be miserable all day and night.  Once I realized and started reading about high needs babies I understand better what I need to do for her.  It will be a little tougher but knowing what I know now will only make me a better parent.
I know this is kind of all over the place.... still a bit upset and lost about everything and being ignored for months causing Holly all this unnecessary pain.